I remember last Friday, when I just got up from sleep, still lying on my bed, I received a call from Daniel. He asked me to go and pray for one of his friend (Kathleen’s) father, who was in a very sick situation, some sort of failure of lungs’ function. And after Daniel asked permission from Kathleen’s mother, he told me I can go to hospital at anytime.
My sister and I reached hospital at around 2pm and met with Kathleen’s family outside the ICU. We were told that we were not allowed to go into the ICU ward because it was the nurses’ shift changing time, plus uncle was going to be transferred to normal ward.
We had no choice but just waited at the waiting area. And God put a thought in my mind, asked me to pray for a pair of new lungs for uncle. Right after that, I led my sister to join faith with me and we prayed for uncle outside. And the Lord put this verse in my sister’s and my heart: Then His fame went throughout all Syria; and they brought to Him all sick people who were afflicted with various diseases and torments, and those who were demon-possessed, epileptics, and paralytics; and He healed them. Great multitudes followed Him—from Galilee, and from Decapolis, Jerusalem, Judea, and beyond the Jordan. (Matthew 4:24-25)
Both of us got the same verse and we got another confirmation from Alex, he sent me through sms, saying the Lord put this in his heart: Multitude follows you when miracle takes place.
The bad part is, we didn’t get to see uncle and had to leave for some reason. We actually waited for almost 2 hours but still didn’t allow to visit uncle. So we left the hospital around 4pm, and made known to Kathleen’s mother that we were to go again the next day.
That night, I texted aunty to confirm uncle’s ward number for the sake of next day’s visitation. After around 15 minutes, I received sms from aunty, saying uncle went home and is forever be with the Lord already. I was like, HUH??!! I DON’T EVEN START TO DO MY PART YET!!!
Actually when I was still in hospital, I had an urge that must be that day! I must see uncle in person and pray for him! I even thought of how to start praying and what to pray and the Lord actually put a lot of words in my mind to let me speak to uncle! But I just didn’t obey the urge and just left the hospital.
Was very upset for I think I didn’t really done my part and uncle just left like that. Kept thinking that if I obey Holy Spirit’s instruction and stay and pray for uncle, there must be a miracle! MUST! My tears couldn’t stop from dropping since I received aunty’s message. Bong Yang phoned me to ask about uncle’s condition, I sambil cry and sambil condemning myself. He tried to comfort me and told me that’s another lesson to learn. I tried to calm myself and not long afterwards, I received call from Daniel. I was very very angry with the devil and after talked with Daniel, I decided to go and pray for resurrection the next day.
I told Daniel I’m going to pray quietly, not make known to uncle’s family. Well, I admit I’m not bold enough to do so. So the next morning, around 11am, I went to uncle’s house, to pray for resurrection with my little faith. Aunty and Kathleen were not around, and there’s no one else I know. Good thing the living hall didn’t have anyone else, after got the permission, I walked near and face-to-face with uncle. Uncle was sleeping with a very peaceful look, very peaceful. Without any doubt, I closed my eyes and started praying. Really wished to see uncle opens his eyes when I open mine, I tried few times, but it didn’t happen. ):
But I saw a vision: uncle was standing beside Jesus, smiling and waving at me. I was curious, but he said it’s ook that he didn’t get back to live. He told me he is good to be with the Lord and thanked me for going to his house. He said that’s an action of sowing seed, where not all his family members are Christian. He said I chose to go and pray for him, already showing the faithfulness of God to his family members, where he appreciates very much.
And I stopped praying.
Was actually thinking whether to share this or not at the first place, and I decided to share it out. As a lesson, I learnt to obey instruction from God, and no same mistake to be taken place anymore. Another thing is, this actually increases my faith to keep doing Kingdom works. The more the devil wants to destroy, the more I want to repair, for God.
I repent and I rejoice.
Thursday, 26 January 2012
Friday, 20 January 2012
小時候就有幻想過離鄉背井去唸書去工作的情形，只是沒有想到，小時候的幻想那麼快就變成了事實，有些難以招架。以前很敢想像，甚至想像過搬到國外去公幹，長居。但是天真的我不曾把父母的心情都概括進想像的框框裡，於是對於父母眼裡的失落，我實在沒轍。當然，我不是那種凡事都得依賴媽媽的 mummy girl，也不是那種會要一直黏在媽媽身邊的嬌嬌女，我很獨立，我是真的很獨立。我只是敵不過要父母失落，敵不過要讓父母日日夜夜如此思念自己。
Monday, 16 January 2012
Wednesday, 4 January 2012
我卻跟主內的一大半弟兄姐妹們在 Alpha 泳池旁，大聲讚美主，一起禱告新的一年美好地到來。
- 成绩是一定要在列表里面的。第一年结束的时候，我觉得不允许自己 c/f 任何一个科目去下一年！這個！成功！
- 我想要学钢琴和吉他啦！原本一鼓作气真的就要去报名学的了，怎料到乐器必须自备，啊咧！我去哪儿找乐器啦一时间。所以，有谁人愿意教教我吗？ 學習吉他中！完成！
- 学好英文，我最近真的发现我的英文还真的不是普通的烂啊，虽然上次去面试的时候老板还称赞我说我的英文有 slang ==''' 這個有待加強。
- 去外国旅行。我连飞机都还没有摸过啊，可怜的我。T^T 結果我去了新加坡！歐耶！完成！
- 学日文学日文！今年一定要报名学日文！ Elementary Level 畢業了啦我！完成！
- 找个人来好好爱一爱，谈一场恋爱。 我找到很愛我的耶穌啦，也接受祂進入我的生命裡了！完成！
我 2011 年裡最大的改變，就是選擇接受主吧。
2011，從 Alpha A棟1樓搬到 B棟14樓。